Sitting at my desk I found myself procrastinating, starting a sentence and deleting it, moving from one topic to another and generally over thinking what I wanted to say. The problem is because I have set myself apart as wanting to write and hoping that other people will think I am good at it, I know that every single word on the page has significance and creates an impression. There is a pressure to say something profound, funny, enlightening… generally something better than what the ‘average’ human being would not say. I feel pressured to write like a writer, but how does a writer write?
Let me make it clear that I have no idea how a writer writes… I personally think that everyone is a writer in their own right. However some people are just able to create better flowing sentences, create better images in other people’s minds, and create an illusion that they are better on paper than they probably actually are. However I am finding that there is a tone developing via social media that makes me feel pressured to write something quirky, or attract attention in order to get noticed. Freedom of speech and all that has made nearly anything admissible. You can slander someone’s name or character, call people all the things under the sun and it’s all cool?! Everyone is talking about what everyone is talking about, and in order to get more twitter followers or be trending, people will falsify and exaggerate opinions in order to get a look in. Where is the problem here?
The problem is that I am finding that I am more mistrustful than ever of what I read. I am constantly battling between just silently reading an article or blog and decoding and deciphering if this may actually be the writers opinion or something they have just thrown together because they know that if they come in from a certain angle it will generate more buzz. This is a problem writers have had to contend with for years upon years and I often find myself sipping tea and wondering what happened to the days of the greats and golden oldies like Shakespeare or Wordsworth who did not care about what other people were saying and instead wrote from the heart.
Are there any genuine writers out there anymore? Ok so a lot of the genuine writers have had questionable lives and untimely deaths (Sylvia Plath, Virginia Woolf), but what they have said has made lasting impacts! Lets be honest, nobody is going to care about a lot of the superficial, hyperbolic gloss that people are spilling everywhere. These are only momentary highs that maybe trending for 3 minutes and then vanish into “the cloud” forever. Today I realised that I actually long for the days of the crazy writer, who passionate in a cause spent hours slogging over sheets of paper, ripping their brains out trying to see life or the situation from a different angle. To be noticed is fine and certainly necessary but there is more more to life than trending right?