At the moment I have a couple of projects in the mix and am feeling the strain of it. I can see where I want to be, I am taking small but significant steps to get there but at the same time still have this niggling feeling that I should be trying to push my message in a different way. If you don’t know I am a Christian and apart from my core belief that Jesus is my Saviour and the Saviour of the world, I also have a heart and passion for seeing people happy. I am not talking about momentary happiness from something relatively insignificant like getting a brand new car, but real happiness: being comfortable in your own skin, living life to full capacity and loving yourself enough to truly care, love and reach out to others. Without a doubt this is a great message that has been played a lot of lip service, as well as a lot of active service that has brought about change for many generations, but where do I fit into all this?
I have spent a lot of time thinking about the best way to reach out: should I sing, should I write, should I act and am finding it hard to master one. Nevertheless I also understand that uncertainty is a part of life and is the way I deal with it that is really important. As I write this blog I feel like my mind is pushing me about, but at the same time I know that I am anchored in God and even when I feel like I am not in control, that doesn’t matter because I know that He is.
This song by Mary Mary helps me push through these confused sessions: